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I am a hairstylist working at First Choice haircutters. I've been there just over a year.
I have a finace whom I'm insane about. We got engaged September 1st, and our wedding date is August 7th. We've been together 6 years.

I have a self diagnosed eating disorder. I tend to restrict, and purge, or starve.
I find bulimia easier, however, it's damaging my esophagus.
I love anything and everything on the paranormal. I love ghost stories. If I could, I would go to university to study ghost hunting, or to become a psychic. I already talk to the dead.

I love tea.

other than that, my life is pretty fucking plain.






Warm Up Walk Jog Cool Down
Week 1 -- 5 minutes 20 minutes 5 minutes
Week 2 -- 5 minutes 4 minutes 1 minute 5 minutes
Week 3 -- 5 minutes 3 minutes 2 minutes 5 minutes
Week 4 -- 5 minutes 2 minutes 3 minutes 5 minutes
Week 5 -- 5 minutes 1 minute 4 minutes 5 minutes
Week 6 -- 5 minutes 20 minutes 5 minutes



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My stats are high.
I'm 5 foot 2 inches
cw is 170
hw 188
lw 125
stgw 1 - 150
stgw 2 - 125
ltgw 1 - 110
ltgw 2 - 97

Name: SarahReject
Gender: felmale
Age: 22
Type of ED: ed-nos - bulimic with anorexic tendencies
Duration of ED: since i was 15/16

i used to be a tall skinny girl.
but when puberty hit, so did depression. i did nothing but watch tv when i got home from school and eat chips.
since my mom ran a daycare, there was always "treats" in the house.

i started binging/purging/restricting when i was 17/18.

i've been on and off meds and seen more therapists than i can count, since i was a baby.
for many reasons.

Rules:
- Walk whenever possible.
- Throw up everything you eat at home
- Crunches at least 150 every night
- Eat only apples away from home
- WATER WATER WATER
- Tums- nothing but tums (for the hunger pains)
- When in doubt look at your ribs. You can see them- you dont want to lose them. Look at the junkie.
You can get to 100 lbs

It's simple: you decide once and for all that you aren't going to eat, and there is no further decision to make.

THIS IS FOREVER. I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES. I WANT TO BE THIN MORE THAN ANYTHING, EVEN FOOD.

want to be that fragile girl sitting in the corner.
i want to curl up next to somebody and feel my ribs pressing against them.
i want to lay down, and run my fingers up my body, counting my protruding ribs.
i want to be that girl in the photo, chest bones showing, collar bones poking out.
i want to be the girl who sits and watches everybody eat, while she picks at her salad yet never takes a bite.
i want to be that girl with the big eyes, thin face, small delicate frame.
i want to be that girl nobody pushes incase she brakes.
i want to be that girl everybody looks at but never talks about.
i want to be that girl with the biggest gap between her thighs.
i want to be that girl that all the fat girls long to be.
i want to be that girl that sips at coffee, smokes cigarettes and writes about nothing.
i want to be that girl who has circles under her eyes, clothes hanging yet she still looks beautiful.
i want to be that girl that sits down and doesnt have a single roll of fat, flab, or anything.
i want to be that girl that everybodys curious about, but never approaches.
i want to be that girl that is present, yet so distant to the world.
i want to stay up all night, walking up and down - only to burn those extra few calories
i want to be that girl that goes to bed weak, and wakes up dizzy
i want to be that girl that thrives off hunger and dances away her dizziness
i want to be that girl that gets high from starvation; who gets energy from air
i want to be that girl that eventually falls, and bruises soso easily
i want to be that girl - possessed by her one desire; to be thin.







ABC DIET
Day 1: 500 calories (or less)
Day 2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: Fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: Fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: Fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: Fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: Fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: Fast

FRUITS on the negative calorie list
Apples
Blueberry
Cantaloupe
Cranberry
Grape Fruit
Honey Dew Melons
Mango
Oranges
Peaches
Pineapple
Raspberries
Strawberries
Tangerines
Watermelon
VEGETABLES on the negative calorie foods list
Asparagus
Beets
Broccoli
Green Cabbage
Carrot
Cauliflower
Celery
Chili Peppers
Cucumber
Endive
Garden Cress
Garlic
Green Beans
Lettuce
Onion
Radishes
Spinach
Turnips
Zucchini




http://www.mirror-mirror.org/bulimia.htm
http://www.mirror-mirror.org/anorexia.htm
http://www.mirror-mirror.org/binge.htm
http://www.mirror-mirror.org/compulsive.htm
http://www.mirror-mirror.org/danger.htm
http://www.cmha.ca/bins/content_page.asp?cid=3-98

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